It occurred to me that the project is not a destination or a goal, or an idea, that maybe the project all along has been me. I am the project. I am the example of what happens when your going along in a deep sleep, acting as if you got the understanding of the bigger game. You asked way to many questions and eventually slumber started to stir around and some sense of half a sleep but still walking around in a mechanical way. But, wait that has been the norm. You got yourself convinced that there couldn’t be any more to understand. Now its about getting better at navigational skills,right? Talking like you got a new language, your always in undercover mode , you figured out the secrets, but its so far reaching they threaten the very core of your fake security. cryptic isn’t it all.
But if I am the project ,who wrote the plan? who appointed me the key player? Becoming aware of the overarching theme in my life, psychic and emotional wounds, triggers, invisible needs, archetypal equivalents, buried trauma, and negative attitudes and patterns is no easy feat. There’s a reason it was referred to in alchemical terminology as “The Great Work”, and it’s due to the amount of effort, willingness, and sincerity that it demands. It’s a lifetime endeavor and its through shadow work that it’s achieved. Now that’s a project.